I recently fixed my room.
Yes, I'm an adult. And yet messy seems to be this hard habit to break.
I try, and try hard. Admittedly, I only really try hard when I've lost a pair of gloves or something more important. I set it aside as a chore, letting it pile up. And it did, finally. I couldn't find one important thing: a floor to walk on(!) And here comes the metaphor--
The room of my heart, my soul, my mind is a space I cannot afford to set aside. Every year I need to make room in there. It carries very important items, which get lost in the hustle and bustle of the unimportant: fear, doubt, pride, and the constant appearance of worldly lint I call indifference.
I (really) should care that there is clutter in my life. If I did that in the first place, and replaced old habits, I wouldn't slip and fall more times than I should. I can make room. I just choose not to.
Today, I simply need to focus... on the important. They require the room more than anything else. To focus is to make room. Tidying up each day, each moment, like a checklist that won't quit I must create the space for me to breathe, to grow. Plus, I would see the way so much better. Making room requires an effort on my part. I do not know the hour... but that hour must come. And so I (must) prepare.
"'Sometimes,' said Pooh, 'the smallest things take up the most room in your heart." ~A.A. Milne
My room looks somewhat leaner than it did a while ago. However, it's missing a few pieces still. So, recently I bought some roses for the altar. This definitely lit up the room. Albeit, this (whole thing) is a work-in-progress. Upon further reflection recently, these are what's important, and usually forgotten:
a) Wonder. When was the last time I looked up and stared at the sky, for more than just a minute and lingered there? When was the last time I was on top of a mountain looking down at a vast valley? That wide-eyed look on a child's face reveals a lot about the true nature of surprise and awe.
b) Desire. Much can be lost in translation with this word. Our hearts ache deeply for something. We throw around words like meaning and purpose, but do we know why? How much is a need worth? I desire deeper things and so for these I must carve out substantial acreage.
c) Joy. I always love seeing smiles on people's faces. It is the one thing that not only creates an instant high, but it is a high that lingers. I often chide my one of my best friends to smile even when no one's looking, because eventually someone will. And the domino effect is priceless!
Make room, dear self. For all these and more. At day's end, it is only these that we will fondly cherish.